Where should I even start with this? Imposter Syndrome is typically not a good thing to have. I never really thought I would have it at all, but I have felt it in the last few weeks. And I don't feel that good about it.
Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon, impostorism, fraud syndrome, or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their skills, talents, or accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud".
Now the above definition is a bit too extreme for my case but yes I feel something similar.
Disclaimer: There is no lesson in this blog, I am just sharing this while I write it at 1:30 am. I really want to write it here because these blogs are one of the things being affected by it.
So I have been producing self-development content as my primary content these days. I have been talking about creator mindset, happiness, success, and all those topics. I was really enjoying it for the first few weeks when it was only on YouTube. But since I have started making reels on those topics, "Amey Karhade has become the self-development guy, A serious guy" in my own mind. And to be honest I am not liking that feeling.
Something tells me that I was happy being the fun creative VFX videos making guy. It's not that I don't like what I talk about in my self-development content, I truly believe in each word I say. But it turns out I don't like the fact that it's this big part of my personality. I mean yes I am interested in self-development but that's not completely who I am. And that is something that bothers me.
I don't want to tell people and make them believe in the up-sides of productivity and self-development. I want to show them that in action. I want something to actually back those claims that I am making.
What does this mean for the future of my content? Yes, I will get back to making VFX videos. Probably focus on films and VFX videos on that account and slowly dissolve this self-development content. Probably keep producing it but post it on a different account or something. This is a big step after that leap I took but I guess if it doesn't feel right then it just doesn't!
I really don't know what to say here but I am definitely working on it. I have a direction on which I wanna work on but don't want to say much about it as of yet.
If you read this, thanks!
See you next week!